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I am either taking this “taper” thing really literally, the 2/3 sick kids are infecting me with their germs, I’m slacking on my preparation for ZOOMA Annapolis half marathon, or I’ve lost my mojo.
I think I know, to be perfectly honest with you: It’s post-grabbing-lost-mojo-syndrome.
Um, what? I’ll explain.
After the Frederick Half Marathon, where I missed the sub-2-hour marathon by FIVE SECONDS (five seconds!!!), I thought “it’s in reach” and “I can do it for ZOOMA!”. I thought that if I focused and worked really hard the next 2-3 weeks, I could rock the sub-2.
But then this happened. I was grabbed/groped/however you want to call it while running with my toddler in the stroller. Go check out that story and the safety tips if you haven’t read it.
I stated that I didn’t feel like a victim, and I didn’t feel that I had been sexually harassed, and this was true – but it basically spoiled my “oomph” and got my mind to take off like a runaway train at all the possible scenarios that could have happened that go much beyond a kid on a bike riding away with me chasing after him.
You know that thing, the oomph, the thing that gives you your drive to get out there and run?
Yeah, that. It was gone.
I didn’t realize, or say out loud, that it was a situation of mojo=lost from the underlying stress of the grabbing/groping incident, and yet – there it was.
I suppose I finally realized it when I forced myself out for a run for the first time on Saturday. I worked most of the weekend until late at night but frankly, Saturday’s run felt pretty good – I had a nice pace, I felt like I conquered running alone on the same 3-mile path since being groped, and life was good.
Running that same route as the previous Saturday gave me a boost.
Pace was good, and I even saw sub-8 on my watch in the first mile. I think that’s a first!
- Mile 1 = 8:45
- Mile 2 = 9:02
- Mile 3 = 8:59
But the whole run I was thinking “what if that guy rides by me on his bike, what will I do?” Would I confront him, chase him again, or call the police? Or all three?
It was hanging over me, weighing me down. But I finished my run and went to work for the rest of the evening.
On Sunday, I had to get outside for a long run. But time slipped away as I spent Quality Time with my son, and I was soooo tired from working for so many hours on Friday and Saturday.
And I didn’t have that oomph, that mojo.
It’s hard to get out for a workout or run on Sunday morning when you came home from work well after midnight on Saturday night. And you have an underlying concern about your safety running alone in broad daylight.
But I got in 5 miles. It was hot. It was sluggish. And it was hard.
Not a good run.
You can see the difference in pace from the run the day before:
- Mile 1 = 9:25
- Mile 2 = 10:01
- Mile 3 = 9:33
- Mile 4 = 10:01
- Mile 5 = 10:06
Let’s face it, I haven’t done enough since the Frederick Half Marathon to prepare for the ZOOMA Annapolis Half.
So let’s lower our expectations here after crushing PR after PR this spring. I’m not going for a PR, I’m not going for a sub-2. It’s going to be warm, hilly, and I’ll be undertrained. And we won’t talk about the couple of pounds I’ve gained back the past couple weeks of not running regularly.
But I will finish the ZOOMA half, and I will enjoy it. That much I will do.
So if anyone wants to aim for a 2:05-2:10 half marathon in Annapolis on Saturday, let me know. I’m your girl. I’m not going to try for a PR but I can guarantee I’ll have a fun race.
Do you ever feel like you’ve lost your mojo? How do you get it back?